August 25, 2014

Dear Brian,

I had a dream last night... and for the first time in a very long time you were in it.

I was at an event for suicide awareness and prevention and had been having a really nice, but emotional, time connecting with some of the lovely women I've met through the tragedy of your death. It was time for the guest speakers to present so the crowd shifted towards the stage. As a young woman stood at the podium and shared her story of losing her brother to suicide I began to cry. The last words she spoke were, "I wish you'd thought about how much you'd hurt me."

Just as she said that, someone reached out and held onto my left hand and gave it a squeeze. As I turned to my left I saw that it was you. You continued to hold my hand and kissed me on the cheek and said, "Laura, I'm so sorry for what this has done to you."

I like to think that was you checking in with me again... and I thank you for that.

Love always,
Laura